Happy Birthday Mijo!!

My son is 16 today!!! Took him out to breakfast at Carrows, I ordered a t-bone and eggs, with 2 pancakes and toast. What kinda breakfast is that, you ask, for a diabetic! Not a very good one!!

Anyhoo. I ate about half the steak, one slice of toast and one bite of pancakes and thats it, I was out. I really wanted dessert, but I was full. I ordered it anyway (bread pudding) and had two bites. This need to feed (in the brain) is hard to deal with, but my head wanted it, and I took one - two bites to "feed my head" as the song goes and I was okay.

Anyway, 2 hours later, my blood sugar is 70!!! I am totally not hungry, but will have a little cracked oats so I don't go to low. Yay Byetta!!




Had a scare on thursday, ran into someone I hadn't seen in 13 years who was a good friend of my Son's deadbeat dad. Told me she had seen him a while back, he wants to look up his son and he's all kinda screwed up, missing teeth, still into petty theft and drugs (guess he continued his downward spiral after we seperated). He's never tried to see his son, and I have never stopped him from doing so. But 16 is such a fragile psychological age, I dont want him to see his dad, all fucked up and think, this is what I come from? When i was in love with his dad, we were so young, he was super smart, charming and kind and also a bad boy, but had his whole life ahead of him. Didnt turn out the way I expected, but I think the best gift he gave his son was staying the hell away. I don't need my kid getting a mind screw that will mess up his last two years of High School. On the other hand, I dont want his dad to like, die, and I had the opportunity to at least attempt to contact him to let him see his dad. I really dont know what to do. But there is a reason for everything and a reason for that random meeting of someone (while i was in court taking care of a traffic ticket no less) I never thought I'd see again. Of course immediately after this meeting i wanted to feed my face. (so yeah, I got me some food issues). I did, but it was a salad and slice of toast, so not too bad, Plus I got two more Avon Customers at the restaurant, so it wasn't bad at all!