Hellllllllllllooooooooooooo

Been a while, but I have been naughty! I have been eating like a REGULAR PERSON. its pretty wild.

that being said, i'm getting out of hand and eating way too much sweets\breads\etc. My weight has not changed and I have not gone to the gym.

bonus, and I really dont know if the rogaine is to blame for this or the byetta ~ but my hair is looking pretty marvelous. I mean, not like it used to be but night and day from last fall. - so I may be getting a nifty new cut soon.

I tell everyone I know about the lizard spit. Kaiser is now refilling my meds, no hassle about the formulary. I dont know if I am still the only one in the LA area they are prescribing, but hopefully, my great results are bearing some fruits.

Last check, 6.6 - not as under control as I would like, but still great. My cholesterol also went down 10pts to 176! I feel great and everyone has noticed.

As far as the PCOS goes, I am still regular ~ but that time of the month is just as emotional as ever. I guess the estrogen is just normal, and I'm not used to it.

Ta for now ~ I joined the YMCA and I NEED to get there this summer - I will retest begining of July and see whats what.

ugh

I think i shot myself twice today, keep waking up at 4am or so, fell back asleep at 645, all I know is I felt sick to my stomach all day. ----------- ate a cuban burrito from the HFS, took me all day to eat, and followed that health up with a big bag of jelly bellies.

i'm cryin .... hate doing this to myself!

pain killer

Didnt take my shot for 24 hours prior to my last two dental appts. (crown and then later, a three root, root canal, that was pleasant)

Any how, I seem to respond to the pain medication this way. I also popped 2 xanex an hour before, and that helped, no crying this time!!

the christening

Puked from the nausea for the first time last night. Not a big puke, but still.

Nausea has gone for the most part, just sneaks up on me sometime. on a higher note, MY HAIR IS GROWING!!! I can't believe its the rogaine, but it might be, its been about 2.5 - 3 months. but it is really much thicker. I need to find some old photos and post. its awesome! I feel like a woman again!

I am stressed out, re work and son, so the eating is not what it should or could be, but its really not bad. stress, its the killer.

problem, have not taken blood sugars in a month. need to get back on track and get lab work done so I can see where I am at. they are open on Sat, i may stop in.

ta for now!

the no good, very bad, efffed up day!!

the mind is beating the matter. I have been enjoying food and in my stressed out week, eating CRAP CRAP CRAP.

Just when I THOUGHT I had a handle on it again, wake up early for a VIP field call, and my car has been broken into. passenger window busted right out. and laying on the ground.

What did they take? A wide open, obviously empty purse. What did they NOT take? About $3000 worth of boxed PC equipment and the Kenwood radio.


Nice. had to go to work anyway. detoured my lunch plus an hour trying to tape up the window, only to slit it open again, lest I get into an accident.

I am PISSED. I dont have time for this crap!

blah blah blah, fishcakes

I have spent the majority of my 42 years comforting my self with food. its just not working for me anymore.

this is a good thing, but darn frustrating.

I need to find something to replace my old standby, something good for me.

gonna take a while to get used to, to say the least.

i think the venom is doing more for my PCOS related issues than anything else. my depression or attitude has REALLY lifted. I am more productive. I am just happier.

and because of this, things are happening.. good things!

Blargh

been eating like a whirlwind and this good workin insulin has me using all that blood sugar. gained 4 lbs back! Garrrrrrrrrrrr!

4 more lbs!!!

As of 02-07-07 I was 232. As of today, 228!!

And I ate a lot of carbs yesterday. Oatbran and cracked oats - for breakfast, not too bad with splenda brown sugar, probably about 30-35 grams of carbs (1/4 cup of oat bran and a 1\4 cup of coach's oats, which are whole cracked oats makes a BIG bowl of slow burning carbs with lots of fiber, I find it abates the morning nausea quite a bit!)

For lunch a mediterranian chicken sandwhich from Subway. 6 inches, im sure this was carbalicious, the italian bread with feta, bell pepper, onions, olives and cucumber, and I ate the whole thing.

Then, tempting me the MarieCalendar's pie sale on the way home. I thought I am going to do it, I need PIE! Took a pie home with a big slice and ate most of it, but really DID NOT ENJOY IT!?! whats going on with me? I am glad I satisfied the urge and was dissappointed. I am losing my love affair with food and this is a very very good thing.

I am joining the gym tommorrow, when i get paid and I am motivated by this continued loss to get some exercise. I will probably have to adjust my meds again once I start workingout on a regular basis.

Anyway. Yay !!

Immune to Pain killers?

I dont believe I posted this, but went to the dentist last week. I have 2 crowns, one root canal and about 6 fillings due. my mouth is a mess and hurts everyday.

He was going to crown the most broken tooth and the novocaine kept wearing off right away, I had two full cartridges of novocain and he finally stopped, took my blood pressure and gave me a full cartridge of lidocaine, about 10 min later I COULD STILL FEEL THE DRILL!!.

The only thing i can think of, other than my high anxiety, was the Byetta. So he packed my tooth and sent me home, I go back in one week, Im supposed to take my xanex and I am going to forgo my morning shot. Hopefully that will do the trick, other wise he is going to have to knock me the hell out and do everything at once. Ay Yi Yi.

And the beat rolls on...

Those 2 lbs did not find thier way back to me, though yesterday afternoon my apetite did! I feel fine today, a little kale soup for breakfast and off to work. This afternoon have a small party for my son.


.............. never hit the post button!


Party was a success, I ate waaaaaaaaay too much including cake and all before my shot which was 30 min too late. so I will take my blood sugar at 10pm and post. If I can figure out a way to post to list, maybe I will keep a running tab on my sugars. Feel great today tho!!

Yip Yip Yippee!

I lost two pounds today! baby steps, baby steps. My blood sugar went rather low yesterday afternoon and by the time I got up to make my self some cracked oats, i was feeling pretty faint. That was no good, so I rested a while. Later, I went to the market to get the goodies for my Kale Soup, and had 2 tinysample cups of soup (great hot soups at Vons) and I was done.

Well not totally done, had half a fuji apple with some peanut butter for dinner, never ended up making my soup. I'm going to make that this morning. I did pass out early and wake up late. Got a great nights sleep and no chills all night.

things are looking good!

Happy Birthday Mijo!!

My son is 16 today!!! Took him out to breakfast at Carrows, I ordered a t-bone and eggs, with 2 pancakes and toast. What kinda breakfast is that, you ask, for a diabetic! Not a very good one!!

Anyhoo. I ate about half the steak, one slice of toast and one bite of pancakes and thats it, I was out. I really wanted dessert, but I was full. I ordered it anyway (bread pudding) and had two bites. This need to feed (in the brain) is hard to deal with, but my head wanted it, and I took one - two bites to "feed my head" as the song goes and I was okay.

Anyway, 2 hours later, my blood sugar is 70!!! I am totally not hungry, but will have a little cracked oats so I don't go to low. Yay Byetta!!




Had a scare on thursday, ran into someone I hadn't seen in 13 years who was a good friend of my Son's deadbeat dad. Told me she had seen him a while back, he wants to look up his son and he's all kinda screwed up, missing teeth, still into petty theft and drugs (guess he continued his downward spiral after we seperated). He's never tried to see his son, and I have never stopped him from doing so. But 16 is such a fragile psychological age, I dont want him to see his dad, all fucked up and think, this is what I come from? When i was in love with his dad, we were so young, he was super smart, charming and kind and also a bad boy, but had his whole life ahead of him. Didnt turn out the way I expected, but I think the best gift he gave his son was staying the hell away. I don't need my kid getting a mind screw that will mess up his last two years of High School. On the other hand, I dont want his dad to like, die, and I had the opportunity to at least attempt to contact him to let him see his dad. I really dont know what to do. But there is a reason for everything and a reason for that random meeting of someone (while i was in court taking care of a traffic ticket no less) I never thought I'd see again. Of course immediately after this meeting i wanted to feed my face. (so yeah, I got me some food issues). I did, but it was a salad and slice of toast, so not too bad, Plus I got two more Avon Customers at the restaurant, so it wasn't bad at all!

Strange Dayz

well. well. well. My appetite seems to be coming back, but not really. I have spent so many years being hungry and "filling the void" I find my self battling my will to eat, with the fact that I really am not that hungry. I need to find something else to fill the void now.

I still have energy and am extremely chatty. The nausea comes and goes, but is really not too bad.

Weight staying the same, sugars staying low, I can feel it! I think that the byetta is doing more to correct issues with my PCOS as anything else. The last time I felt this good I was pregnant, and that says it all.. estrogen baby!! I suspect that whatever makes us more sensative to our own insulin is helping the PCOS. Metaformin (which I am taking) was developed for Diabetes, however a side effect, women suffering from PCOS began menstruating again! It is now prescribed just for PCOS as well!

Hooray! Hooray!

I have been using Byetta since Dec 30, 2006. In my first month (on 5mcg twice a day). I have Diabetes type 2, PCOS and could stand to lose 100 lbs.

My AC1 test in october of 06 was 11.8 - totally out of control. In Dec 06 it was 9.3, brought down by diet and meds. after one month on Byetta, it was down to 6.7!!!! I lost 13 lbs, have temendous energy, not much of an appetite and just feel great in general. Plus, my skin looks GREAT!

I will be tracking my progress on this site and welcome discussion.