oh well

started off with a whiz bangaroo.. petered. out.

I dont know why when I am ignoring my health (read, eating naughty) I decide I must not take my meds at the same time. one week turned into the christmas season turned into Christ! its already april.

so fuck me ~ I havent been takin the spit for about 4 months. I need to reup my perscription, but Im afraid they will make me test out and i am in fact overdue for my blood tests, and they will say I am a lizard spit failure and cannot get the meds anymore under insurance.

on a lighter note, my house is damn clean (i am over coming a hoarding addiction) and i started going to the gym again.

my hair looks like caca.
(sigh)

So I am going to start up the blog, start up the diet, start up the meds, start up the exercising and go on a spending moratorium so I can get some money saved up for our trip to ComiCon in July.

wish me luck people!

Hellllllllllllooooooooooooo

Been a while, but I have been naughty! I have been eating like a REGULAR PERSON. its pretty wild.

that being said, i'm getting out of hand and eating way too much sweets\breads\etc. My weight has not changed and I have not gone to the gym.

bonus, and I really dont know if the rogaine is to blame for this or the byetta ~ but my hair is looking pretty marvelous. I mean, not like it used to be but night and day from last fall. - so I may be getting a nifty new cut soon.

I tell everyone I know about the lizard spit. Kaiser is now refilling my meds, no hassle about the formulary. I dont know if I am still the only one in the LA area they are prescribing, but hopefully, my great results are bearing some fruits.

Last check, 6.6 - not as under control as I would like, but still great. My cholesterol also went down 10pts to 176! I feel great and everyone has noticed.

As far as the PCOS goes, I am still regular ~ but that time of the month is just as emotional as ever. I guess the estrogen is just normal, and I'm not used to it.

Ta for now ~ I joined the YMCA and I NEED to get there this summer - I will retest begining of July and see whats what.

ugh

I think i shot myself twice today, keep waking up at 4am or so, fell back asleep at 645, all I know is I felt sick to my stomach all day. ----------- ate a cuban burrito from the HFS, took me all day to eat, and followed that health up with a big bag of jelly bellies.

i'm cryin .... hate doing this to myself!

pain killer

Didnt take my shot for 24 hours prior to my last two dental appts. (crown and then later, a three root, root canal, that was pleasant)

Any how, I seem to respond to the pain medication this way. I also popped 2 xanex an hour before, and that helped, no crying this time!!

the christening

Puked from the nausea for the first time last night. Not a big puke, but still.

Nausea has gone for the most part, just sneaks up on me sometime. on a higher note, MY HAIR IS GROWING!!! I can't believe its the rogaine, but it might be, its been about 2.5 - 3 months. but it is really much thicker. I need to find some old photos and post. its awesome! I feel like a woman again!

I am stressed out, re work and son, so the eating is not what it should or could be, but its really not bad. stress, its the killer.

problem, have not taken blood sugars in a month. need to get back on track and get lab work done so I can see where I am at. they are open on Sat, i may stop in.

ta for now!

the no good, very bad, efffed up day!!

the mind is beating the matter. I have been enjoying food and in my stressed out week, eating CRAP CRAP CRAP.

Just when I THOUGHT I had a handle on it again, wake up early for a VIP field call, and my car has been broken into. passenger window busted right out. and laying on the ground.

What did they take? A wide open, obviously empty purse. What did they NOT take? About $3000 worth of boxed PC equipment and the Kenwood radio.


Nice. had to go to work anyway. detoured my lunch plus an hour trying to tape up the window, only to slit it open again, lest I get into an accident.

I am PISSED. I dont have time for this crap!

blah blah blah, fishcakes

I have spent the majority of my 42 years comforting my self with food. its just not working for me anymore.

this is a good thing, but darn frustrating.

I need to find something to replace my old standby, something good for me.

gonna take a while to get used to, to say the least.

i think the venom is doing more for my PCOS related issues than anything else. my depression or attitude has REALLY lifted. I am more productive. I am just happier.

and because of this, things are happening.. good things!